I always find it really difficult to be happy with what I'm doing. Although my goal is perfect movement and I will strive to achieve this all the time, this is a very general goal and cannot easily be applied to every day life. Due to this and the fact that I haven't been enjoying life too much recently, I've decided to make more conscious effort to be happy with myself; not to be over excited by very small achievements but to have a balance towards my feelings. It's quite a deep thought but one that I fear will crush me if it's not addressed.
I have been pleased with my recent efforts with everything; working hard, pushing myself comfortably with Parkour and pushing myself to take care of the people i care most about. I often forget to think about (or think I don't care) how I'm portraying myself. I expect reactions and give nothing for people to react to, which is an ignorant cycle.
Those who I care most about are the reason for my existence and people who make me feel valued, so it is incredibly selfish for me to not give anything back to those people.
I also have changed attitudes towards more general things, like the ability to have fun. Although going out and working hard at the discipline is fun, I've had my head down focusing for too long and on the way I feel I have lost the balance of doing practical things and things that don't necessarily have a purpose but are fun. I feel like I've lost out on more social oppurtunties with friends and family over the past few years, so I am very much looking forward to catching up.
In addition to all of this, I've decided to keep this blog filled with personal content, as although this is publisized on the internet, the only people that will read it are people that I have most in common with and my thoughts are theirs to keep.
I've also decided to be a gangsta, so blap blap 3run massive. Big up to all you peeps in the hood, much love and peace out.
xxxxxxxxxx lol
I have been pleased with my recent efforts with everything; working hard, pushing myself comfortably with Parkour and pushing myself to take care of the people i care most about. I often forget to think about (or think I don't care) how I'm portraying myself. I expect reactions and give nothing for people to react to, which is an ignorant cycle.
Those who I care most about are the reason for my existence and people who make me feel valued, so it is incredibly selfish for me to not give anything back to those people.
I also have changed attitudes towards more general things, like the ability to have fun. Although going out and working hard at the discipline is fun, I've had my head down focusing for too long and on the way I feel I have lost the balance of doing practical things and things that don't necessarily have a purpose but are fun. I feel like I've lost out on more social oppurtunties with friends and family over the past few years, so I am very much looking forward to catching up.
In addition to all of this, I've decided to keep this blog filled with personal content, as although this is publisized on the internet, the only people that will read it are people that I have most in common with and my thoughts are theirs to keep.
I've also decided to be a gangsta, so blap blap 3run massive. Big up to all you peeps in the hood, much love and peace out.
xxxxxxxxxx lol
